Inside Me

I'm slapped in the face with consciousness every time I fade away
why am I still here, I should have died last night anyway
critical condition, and I'm puttin up no resistence
I can feel it all through my body, the pain of losin existence.
Reality can be so cruel, LORD let the pain end
I'm ready to skip on out of this life so the next one can begin
but I haven't been that great, I hope that I wont burn
flames lickin my feet, all because my faith wasn't that firm
but I've been workin on that, and I've always just believed
I just didn't act right, I'm sure that satan was relieved.
I can feel the sharp pain of memories stabbin inside my chest
I need rest, but with each breath comes the numbness of inevidable death.
Death himself is at my door, and my life's within his grasp
as he comes closer, my heart pace quickens and I begin to gasp
he clamps on my wrist, and what's blurry becomes clear
he`s trying to take me away, but the doctors are keepin me here.
PLEASE!!leave me alone, human and spirits alike
I just wanna lay here in peace, and reflect back on my life
back to my childhood, my first time holdin a gun
to feel the power in my hands that'll make the strongest men run
I could get whateva I wanted by pointin that thing at you
if you didn't meet my demands,then I'd throw some bullets at you.
I was thinkin I was tough, but the gun'll do that to you
the payback can be rough, when they send some slugs back through you.
When things finally cought up, I'll admit that I wasn't ready
they was confident he'd get me, calmly holdin the gun steady
he wanted to prolong my fate,so he didn't shoot to kill
and plague my body with injuries that were sure to never heal
but I guess the bullet missed, so take a look at me now
it hit my spine, paralysis forced me to throw in the towel
but that`s not the end, internal bleeding now has me layin here dyin
I'm hit daily with the blows of my family sittin around me cryin...
........
you see, death is not the problem,the problem is passin away slow
cause for a couple of weeks, I've had my bags packed and I've been ready to go

Day into Night

Waiting….thinking….remembering, got to keep it together

keep my mind right, cause I'm about to be remembered forever

but….I don't want to be the one to do it….

I mean…I'm just sayin, there won't be much love if I do it

My name'll be etched into the sheet of time that covers eternity

Where I'll probably burn in hell if this deed takes it's toll on me

Soooo………I haven't decided if that really means much to me

……I have to do this job because….because it's my duty

HA, my duty. My duty to my country means nothing to my nation

They just need mules that follow orders upon invitation

But….that's all besides the point, back to the object at hand

My goal is the destroy the land through means of a destructive plan

So I control the motions of this airship flying over the ocean

Takin a trip to Hiroshima while being bombarded with emotion

Maaaaan….I can see the people…..civilian deaths don't need to take place

but I'm just gonna wipe them out, somehow maintaining a straight face

the target is under me, I drop my load and speed off in hasty flight

silent impact creatin an explosion so bright it turned the day into night

Invincible

Life...a roller coaster to some,to me it's a bungee jump with too-long rope
but I dont die when I hit the ground, flooded with pain but nothin's broke
Death hopes he'll reach me, but I'm always beyond his grasp
he confused me once by wearin an inspirational mask
but it wont work, meanwhile I still hurt, from the pain of sustained life
I cant....it sounds wierd, but I cant break loose from immortal life
my birth was in the golden days, I came forth from New York city
who knew I'd outlast the city and be assulted by self-pity
loved then lost,loved then lost,loved then lost,that's my 200 year cycle
while others age and die, my eternal youth turns me psyco
well, it trys to, but my wisdom conquers all insanity
I have no urge to conquer because of the decent man in me
I've tried many times to die, I've payed the best people to kill me
...utterly unsuccessful, there was nothin that they could do to me
I've been stabbed, only to break blades and shot just to deflect slugs
given diseases but I'm immune, poision that dissappeared in my blood
dipped in acid and neutrilized it, skydived with no parachute and survived it
I almost drowned once,but my body forced me to surface, wouldn't allow it
so I say my birth was a curse, happiness comes in the form of a hurst
I wish life would disperse, but I keep living, and that's worse
so now I just go through the days and reside in a cave
time really goes slow, especially in this day and age
you see, mankind is long dead, and that was several million years ago
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE BEIN ALONE FOR MILLIONS OF YEARS??
IT'S INCOMPREHINSIBLE.....I'M EVEN TALKIN TO MYSELF NOW......
this song aint goin to nobody....but I'm still writin it all down
in the dirt with my finger, only to wa-...what's that, the ground's tremblin
the ground's breakin up as magma quickly surfaces,now I'm tremblin
not cause I'm scared that I'll die, but cause I'm scared that I'll live on
...an explosion, blinding light, I no longer feel the ground I was standing on
unconscious...............now I'm commin back....damn...DAMN....DAMN!!!!!!
I'm floatin in space, no more earth, but I'm surrounded by chunks of land
I doomed to float for etern-...huh...what's that burning inside of my chest
can it be??the lungs hunger for oxygen in my breast
now I'm smiling, death is finally showing me some love and attention
ahhhhh, the precious burn, the beauty of my life fading away
the last heartbeat,YES!....today was a good day
...*dies*...

Time: An Autobiography

I've come from infinity, and I still seem to be going
As long as there's existence, I'm still gonna be flowing
I'm every mans enemy, but I'm one you can't see
When you look forward to things, they have to happen over me.
I've influenced some of the best, helped them develop into men
If it wasn't for me, there'd be no "now" and no "then"
I've seen more than you'd imagine, because you can't imagine everything
I know everything that ever was, imagine the knowledge that I bring
Knowledge is an infinite thing, it exists because I do
Do you know the foundations of this word? No, but I do
Can you vouch for the earth's creation, or remember before it was
I watched as the world became, I developed the concept of was.
History is my last name, the future is me in a minute
There would be no present, if I didn't come up with it
I remember when it was a mystery how a human life began
But now you've learned science, and you're trying to clone men
Destruction and mankind, the two go hand in hand
It's a problem now, and it s been one since expansion began.